Hey, my name is Eric. I'm 23 y/o, LDS, a college student, and this is my page about health, style, and better living. If there's anything else you wanna know, just hit me up!
I’ve been single so much for so long, it honestly seems weird to me to be anything but. There are a lot of girls who like me right now, and yet, I can’t seem to really go after any of them. I’m just in a rather state of otherwise lull right now. I just don’t get excited about anything anymore. I just live the daily grind of work and school, and then I go to bed. Is that a bad thing? I guess I’m just waiting for something to really excite me again.
So, it’s 2:00am, and I just got home from yet another wedding. The whole night my friend kept introducing me to cute girls who were interested in me, and while I had a great time, I didn’t really care much for any of them. Dating becomes extremely hard when you constantly compare people to your ex. How do you move on from something, when deep down you know you don’t want to?
Tell me; what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I ever move on, or for once allow myself to be happy? Why do I constantly let myself be haunted by someone who doesn’t even love me? I haven’t even seen her in almost a year. I hate sleeping, I hate being awake, I can’t find peace, no matter what I do. I feel so stupid, like really? If this is what my life is going to amount to; putting on a smile and trying my hardest to be happy just to crash and burn by the end of the day, then I don’t want it. Let someone else take these shoes, because I’m sick of walking in them.
There’s nothing like looking your best, and hearing a girl ask, “who’s that?”, just so another girl can respond, “That’s Eric. Don’t bother though, he’s still in love with his ex”. I think I’m done with the whole feelings thing, they don’t do anything productive. I’ll just go back to disassociating myself from people and avoid interaction where ever possible.